So, I have been totally busy lately that I haven't even been able to get on this! So I am going to just tell you all the major things that has happened or whatever.

Well, I found out that I suck at sheeping. I think that every sheeping attempt has ended by me getting annoyed and stabbing myself accidently with my needle. (I cannot sew for the life of me in school)I got to have a little minion for this art thingy we did at school. Her name was Sarah and she seemed to like me. We got to walk around the school for 15 minutes with Corie, Alayna, Trisha, Jamie and Orlando( I love him so much). We were very....umm, loud. It was fun since I got to miss trig.

I got the keys to my mom's car so I can drive it whenever I want as long as she is in the car since I only have my stupid permit......I have to wait until January.....stupid state laws. I then got the keys to my mom's boyfriend's car. He has been teaching me how to drive and I must say, I am very good. (LOL)

Today, I was talking to Carrie, and I told her my blonde moment. She applauded me. Then I acted like a total freak by acting like I was accepting an award and also acting like i was a fake crying miss america person. I think Carrie fell out of her chair laughing.  I am so funny....lol

Semi is only 4 days away folks! I have a date who I guarrentee won't run off and break up with me because I scare him...lol. I am not scary Hope to talk to ya'll later....I need to stop listening to my french teacher talking like she is from the south

USH: Nothing new.....got to leave for part because my hearing doctor loves me ♥ fire drill too!

French: Took very easy quiz and played passe casse. LOL

AP Bio: notes and watched Mr. Haines scared the living daylights out of Dana....lol...made my day

Gym: volleyball.....nothing thrilling

AP Eng: seminar part 2 today...me and eva had a discussion on being shot and getting too or under upset.....had to be there

Lunch: Listen to everyone and wish ppl would let me into a convo since i miss most of it since I CAN'T F********* HEAR! I hate hearing impairement.

Art: tried drawing school...wasn't working for me so spent time talking to Jamie, Orlando, Alayna, Trish and Corie.

Dance: Performed test

Trig: Quiz

That was my boring day. ANyone having a Halloween Party? I would love to help out...since i have no social life...LOL! Hope to talk to ya'll tomorrow!

P.S.- My computer is down so I am using my mom's...it maybe a bit before i can talk again!

U.S. History: went over worksheet thingy. Lauren only got two answers right that she said out loud. I only got two too. Emily didn't say anything. Yelly was the most intelligent out of all of us.

French III: She gave us our 5 euros and started speaking in French. Had to talk about our best friend. Me being corny and couldn't decide who should be the person I would write about....i wrote about my mother.....

A.P. Biology:I got a 90 on the test! I think the scan machine broke when it did mine. I never got a grade like that when I had Dr. Cost! WOW!! i was impressed.

Gym: Softball......I hit it far today and ran all the bases, then almost caught the ball but it dissapeared...or as Dana puts is "It went *pop*!"

A.P. English: We organized our binders and started first unit....it was interesting?

Lunch: We all were smuched together....again....gave eva my sausage and watch everyone talk about random things that I couldn't hear since those damn freshmen talk to damn loud!

Drawing and Painting III: Listened to Ms. Glagola talk about her mole that she got removed....didn't want to her THAT but she was wearing my FM system...Lauren and Erin thought that was funny...did nothing since I got my coconut idea done so I tried to hear what Lauren and Erin were saying/singing.

Dance: Just did streaching rotine....blah!

Trigonometry:Had fun because teacher is funny...got homework and finished it in class

 Schedule time!!!!!1st: U.S. History 11A1 (ABCD days) Mr. Dance B208
2nd: French Regents (ABCD days) Mme. Bserani A145
3rd: A.P. Biology (ABCD days) Mr. Haines C230
4th: Gym (AC days) Mr. Martin
4th: A.P. Biology (LD days) Mr. Haines C230
4th: A.P. Biology (SHB days) Mr. Haines C230
5/6: A.P. Lang/Comp.(ABCD days) Mrs. Sierotnik A137
7th: Lunch Caf 2
8/9: Drawing/Painting III (ABCD days) Mrs. Glagola A217
10th: Intermediate Dance (ABCD days) Ms. Brackett B129
11th: Trigonometry (ABCD days) Mr. St Croix C132

Locker B2574 Homeroom B208

ATTENTION PEOPLE IN CARRIE'S CULT!!!

Me and our dear friend Carrie A.K.A. Gary, decided we want to have a get-together before school starts. We haven't decided if we want to do it at the mall or minature golf, but we want to know when it's a good time for everyone to do it. I can do it any day except from september 2nd to the 5th because I am being force to go on some stupid trip with my mom and her bf...!!! Anyhoo...please leave a comment here or on Gary's journal.

Thank You!!!

This is for the year of llama mania! Oh how I miss 9th grade. The other day it hit me, We are now 11th graders! That means in one year we will rule the school. That means in one year, we will all be accepted into colleges all over the United States. That means in one year, we will graduate. Our lives will change forever. So I decided to make sure we have a hell of a lot more memories so that when we do spilt ways, we will always remember each other. No more stupid arguements on how weird I am or what musical is the best. We need to stop that. We need to mature now because if we don't, I'm afraid we will split ways sooner and end up hating each other for the rest of our lives.

What made me think of this was when my cousin took me to church yesterday. We were just looking around and found this prayer room (personally, I think my cousin already knew this since this was HER church). It was so breathtaking! The was a stream of water running through it and there was beautiful sculptures of the Virgin Mary and Jesus and animals and landscapes, and for one minute, I thought I was in Heaven. I am not very religous, heck, I don't even go to church (becuase i can't hear), and this just shook me like an earthquake. I just started thinking. I was like, i need to apologize to everyone! I need to tell them that I still care about them and I hope they can forgive me. Then I thought about the fights I have had. They were all stupid, but some parts made sense. I mean, yeah I do try and get people to like me, but once they seem to like me, i back off and start acting like myself. But no reason to fight. We just got angry and took it out on someone else. It's normal to do that but not normal when everyone is trying to kill each other!

I also started to think about my doctors appointment I had yesterday too. I had to get blood drawn because the doctor thinks that there maybe something wrong with me. It may explain why I was so sick this year. i am scared because the doctor didn't even reasure me, like she already knew the results, before the bloodwork. But now I am not really worried, because if there is something seriously wrong, I wouldn't be here so I am grateful. I am starting to see the light, but it may become cloudy again until the next enlightenment. LOL

Now we need something funny....how about a quote? OK here is one:

"Hello little girl. How DARE you enter...the Grinch's lair? The impudence!The audacity! The unmitigated gall! You called down the thunder, now get ready...for the BOOM! Gaze into the face of fear! (Blubbering) You see, even now the terror is wellding up inside you.Denial is to be expected in the face of...pure evil.Doubt? Another unmistakeable sign of the heebie-jeebies! Now you are DOOMED! Run for your life, before I kill again! I'm a psycho!"

~The Grinch

So just when I thought that coming back from Illinois would make seem like I changed and that the past was forgotten, the rollercoaster of the word "friends" takes a really sharp turn. My Aunt came over Saturday to watch me and my sister while my mom went on a one-night romantic trip with her boyfriend. My aunt brought over this movie thing and it is a musical called HAIRSPRAY. I watched it and liked it. She then gave me the soundtrack and the book of lyrics. I listen to the CD and fell in L.O.V.E. with it! So yesterday (Monday) I went to Lauren's tag and asked if anyone liked it too. A lot of her friends are into musicals and I wanted to hear their take on it. Then today, someone on her tag asked me to stop acting like their friend. I didn't think I was acting like a friend. I was just asking for a opinion.

So why am I having so much trouble with this? Me and Eva put our fight behind us. I think me and Lauren are no longer mad each other also. So why am I having this problem? Whoever is reading this and has a problem with it tell me! I won't get mad if you just be honest with me. I would be honest with you and I am sorry that I "try to be friends" with you. I thought that being nice was alright. I didn't know that you would thought that when I was being nice that I was forcing myself to be your friend. I am sorry that you think that then.

Anyways, let's see what makes my summer even worse. My dad is in Illinois with a woman that he spent one week with him and he now says he wants to marry her. My mom is to overprotective. She is so protective that I can't cross the street without her hyperventalating.I am 17 and my mom is treating me like I am 5. Tell me that I am not just imagining it! So why do I seem to be weird or someone who pressures people? Look at my family! I come from a crazy family! It's hereditary! Now will you give me some slack?

Hey everyone!!!

I got back from Chicago on Saturday. It was really cool.

We went to Six Flags and the Museum of science and industry. Then i just hung out with random people.

I am just saying hi because i am bored

 I AM 17!!!!!!!Saturday was my birthday. Yay me! My mom got me some art supplies and Terri Clark's PAIN TO KILL cd! My aunt took me to lunch and all these weird waiter-people came out chanting happy birthday.... major embarassment. I started laughing. My mom's boyfriend took me put-putting and I drove! He said I did good, better than most and I am quoting "getto-diabolical children". I also got my permit. I got a 100! yay me!

Then on sunday, I went to this 4th of July cookout and hung out with my friends Amanda and Tim who go to Bishop Ludden. We took a row boat out and it had a motor, and we got in the middle of the lake when we ran out of gas! Amanda rowed back while Tim kept coming up with weird ideas...."TIM! Why won't you row?" "I can't row! But let me get out and pull the boat." "great idea!...NOT!!!" We walked to get ice cream with maggie o'hara, melissa d. and chrysa and we played with sparklers. The we layed on a hammic and played with their cells.

That really been it. I'll write again before i go to chicago!

NO MORE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!

Yay!!!  

Monday: NO school so I spent the day cleaning and being bored....I did those weird quiz things my cousin sent me...I really don't pay attention to what they are about....

Tuesday: Took the bus to school and waited to take the Global test with Emily snd Amanda. The Global regents was sooooooooooooooo easy that I felt like crying...jk. My thematic essay was on pollution and deforestation...two easy things to write about. Got a ride home from my cousin and ate food.

Wendsday: Chem regents....!!!! LOL! It wasn't that bad...I actually knew the answer to a couple of questions. After it was over, hung out with Erica and Speckie until my mom picked me up

Thursday: Actually slept in! Called and talked to my daddy. Went to Dukin' Donuts with my mom during her lunch to get caffiene high on coffee coolattas! Then cleaned bikes for garage sale on Saturday.

Today: Slep in until 9. Watch MTV Movie Awards reruns.       Now extremely bored.